My name is Jacque Zarrillo

When I was asked me to give a testimony about Bible reading for our women’s retreat, I immediately said yes. And when it came to writing down what I would say – well, let’s just say this is my fourth version.

I have been reading the Bible regularly, a little of the Old Testament and a little of the New Testament every day for years and when I get to the end, I start over.

When ladies’ Bible study was starting back up in September 2013, and I found out we would be studying the Book of Luke, that’s where I was in my personal Bible study, so I decided to read over the same small part of Scripture for the week leading up to when Susan would teach from that part on Thursday morning, before I would move on.

What started happening is Jesus started jumping off the pages in a three dimensional way. I was getting to know him more intimately than ever before.

I began to see myself as one of the disciples following him around and started to believe nothing will be impossible with God.

This slowed-down, intensified Bible reading started informing and transforming my prayer life. I would find myself praying, “I am your servant, Lord. Let it be to me according to your word.” Or when Jesus taught about forgiving your brother seven times in the day and the apostles said to the Lord, “Increase our faith!” I found myself crying out for increased faith also.

I began to identify with the woman of questionable character, realizing I had many sins that are forgiven. The more I see how much I have been forgiven, the more I am filled with love and gratitude and worship for the One who has paid the price for that forgiveness, causing me all the more to want to be living before Him, and spending time with Him.

And then I come to where, “An argument arose among them (the disciples) as to which of them was the greatest.” And this, just after Jesus tells them, the ones who are following Him, that, “The Son of Man is about to be delivered into the hands of men.” And I think to myself, Unbelievable! How could they argue about such a thing? That Wouldn’t Be Me! So I wonder why this little story is included.

Then I see a similar scenario take place again, only this time at the last supper Jesus ate with His disciples. He finishes telling them He is betrayed by one of the 12 and He is going to suffer as it has been determined, and once again the Bible includes, “A dispute also arose among them, as to which of them was to be regarded as the greatest.”

Then I start thinking about how Jesus tells us, “let the greatest among you become as the youngest, and the leader as one who serves.” And then He says He is among them as one who serves.

But in my heart, I keep going back to the argument and the dispute about who is the greatest. Well, Jesus is addressing me and the attitudes of my heart here, and I sooo didn’t want it to be, but it’s true. As a follower of Jesus, I would have been right in the middle of the argument and dispute.
What that looks like for me today, is me comparing myself to others, thinking, I can’t believe she did that! I would never do such a thing. Or, I can’t believe they said that and they’ve been a Christian how long? I am so thankful the Son of Man came to seek and to save the lost.

So as the Holy Spirit uses the Word of Christ to convict me, I can rely on my Savior Jesus to cleanse me from All unrighteousness, knowing that He who began a good work in me will bring it to completion, and so by the Spirit, putting to death the deeds of the flesh, having full confidence that we are being conformed to the image of Christ. Not covering up sin, but confessing it and repenting of it and thereby not being a slave to it any longer.

So let’s cry out to the Father, by the power of the Holy Spirit to be mastered by the Word of Christ!


  • Renee Burrough says:

    Oh, what a truthful and pure testimony yours is Jackie! My own heart has also been convicted of sins which I keep hidden in the safe place of my memories. So thankful for our salvation! You bless me so much with the impact of your life and love of scripture. We are made new!

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